[Closed] I think I'm about to be diagnosed with cancer, and I'm fairly scared.

Come on, where are these wedding pictures?? Some of us are getting impatient!

This thread is useless without pics !

(wedding before I get thrown to the snakes that have been crossed with bulls)

I only hope that I would be as strong as you two are........

Hope the treatment is going ok Mark.

Keep the strength up.

Hi folks,

Sorry I haven't been in contact for a while. I'd like to say that things have been hectic, but they haven't. I've had a couple of wobbles since my first chemo session last week on an emotional level, and sometimes doubt creeps in as to whether I'm capable of actually beating the odds occurs. This scares the shit out of me.

There are other more pressing elements at play. I have terrible body dysmorphia at the moment. My scar, whilst impressive for outsiders, makes me feel weak and abnormal. I can't even bring myself to look at it in the mirror without crumbling. My chest still hasn't healed from the surgery and the infection, and this means that I have to sleep on a giant bean bag beside the bed, away from Meg. I really need the physical contact at the moment; I don't care if people view it as being a pussy or the like, but at the moment I need the safety and omfort of the person I love to get through, and not being able to cuddle and hug is a real bodyblow.

The other issue revolves around not being able to sleep past 3am. Getting up this early by yourself allows all the negativity to pervade your thoughts, and no-one to talk to. Pretty tricky really. I find myself turning off TV programmes that are medical by nature, or that might involve death in any way. How shite is that? How bloody cowardly? I have no idea how to pull my head out of my arse at the moment, and it worries the hell out of me.....

On the positive side, I seem to be doing quite well physically 4 1/2 weeks after the heart surgery. I'm managing to walk the dog over some pretty hilly ground at the moment, and using a pedometer I'm clocking up between 7500 and 9000 steps, so I'm aiming for the 10000 per day needed to be beneficial to my heart. I'm also looking to get on the bike soon. If anyone wants to join me for a daytime ride along the seafront from Brighton to Worthing and back at any point please let me know. I know it sounds lame, but I need the first time to be a test as to what I can do....

Cheers for listening. If anyone has a clue as to how I can get photos of the wedding up on here then please let me know!

Hi Mark,I don't sleep much either LOL.Your feelings are not abnormal,but more a sign of you learning to deal with this illness.Your body has been through a lot of extreme changes over the last few months,and it isn't surprising that it is difficult to come to terms with,but you've done very,very well so far.No-one on here will think you are a pussy,we're all still gobsmacked at how well you are doing.You'll have these emotional blips,but stay positive,I think getting back on the bike will help,and we're all rooting for you.
Ian
P.S. There's a guide to posting pictures on the forum help page,we're all looking forward to them.

Hey Mark, You are a true legend of stw, my first time posting in this thread but as everyone else has said, you are handling it amazingly well, of course you will have these feelings and i'm no expert but it must be normal, with time you will heal and get better, i'm impressed your able to do so much walking and already thinking about getting on the bike again, keep at it!

oh yeah! on the pictures front, you can create an account on flickr or similar service, once you have them on the web ask again if you're not sure how to link to them.

Hi Mark, you are a truely amazing guy and I think meg is the luckest girl In the world to have someone as positive and strong as your are. I can't imagine what you have been/are going through at the mo but there are alot of people out here that are wishing you the best. I live a long way from Brighton but I'd quite happily drive down and have a quick spin on the seafront with you. All the best, Ian

Well i dont think many would say you were a 'pussy'...

Cant help with pics, but im sure there will be tons of help from others when they get to work in the uk..

Dont feel abnormal, you've just had major surgery. Its clear youre going to have a scar, but it doesnt matter. What matters is that you concentrate on getting better.

Use this time wisely (the 3am till Meg gets up), organise yourself and dont watch tv for the moment - maybe you're just not ready for that.

All the best.

Hey Mark.

First things first, if you don't have a flickr account you could mail some pics to me and I will put them on mine and link them on here.
Right, that's the important bit out of the way... 😉

Actually no, the important bit is get those 'I'm a pussy' thoughts right out of your head. You're not, you're just getting on with it and bad days are allowed and normal and you really have to ride with them. But a pussy you are definitely not!

Body dysmorphia - that is entirely normal too. And in time you will be able to look at the scar. Even if it is just a sideways glance in the mirror for a second. It's new and it's (to you) ugly but in time it will be part of you and part of your 'story' and while you might not like it you will accept it. Don't try to rush yourself...

As for your comment about switching off medical programs: me and J couldn't even watch Scrubs!! Seriously. It used to make me cry! (and not just because it is actually crap)

As for filling your awake at 3am time - not sure what to suggest. How about taking up a new hobby? I was going to suggest knitting but I fear a backlash, so how about maybe trying to learn a new language or something? If it's something entirely new the concentration will be directed to that and away from the negative thoughts, if only for a little while. It might help?

Bye for now,

T

Mark, to re-enforce the above. I'm no expert but I've known a few folk who've had [b]MAJOR[/b] surgery and it does take some time to get your round. Baby steps buddy, don't try marathons yet. We are all behind you and you are an inspiration.

Anyway onto the important stuff. 3:00am wake up? Can't sleep? One word.
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Airfix!

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Mark

Nothing on your level, but I had a close brush with death a few years ago (passed out underwater, was unconscious, blue, not breathing & no detectable pulse on the surface) and I had many of the same reactions as you after that. I became massively aware of my own frailty and couldn't watch anything that involved any sort of possible medical/death scenarios - it all seeemed too close for comfort. I eventually got some assistance to work through it via counselling and it really helped me - not saying that works for everyone, but if you can find some sort of third party support (not Meg or us lot cos we're all too involved) then try it and you might find something that helps.

Oh, and aren't lions and tigers just big pussy's too.

Ooh, Coyote - good call on the Airfix - so much more manly than knitting too.

You're doing absolutely fine. What you're feeling is completely normal, your mind is also going through the healing process, and so these thoughts are part of that process.

Vocalising your thoughts are good for the soul, and help you to make sense of where you're at right now.

Mark, there's a few of us that live in the South-east, and I'm sure we'd all happily drive down to ride out with you :o)

Actually, with the night drawing in and the cold season turning up, knitting might not be such a bad idea. If Stallone can knit in Demolition Man (after being frozen for x years) then there will be no shame in Mark doing it. After all, films reflect reality...

Mark, keep your chin up! You're doing really well, and I had exactly the same sort of feeling when I had my heart problem diagnosed. It takes time to get over it, and you have a big advantage over me... Meg. From what you have said, she's supporting you in a way that my ex-wife never did. Between the two of you, you are strong enough for anything the world can throw at you. Hell, you've already proved you are stronger than a lot of people just by going through things to date.

Just remember who you are and where you and Meg are going to be when this is licked.

Now get out there and buy some Airfix. And some yarn.

Hi mate, this is my 1st post on this forum as i've only just discovered STW, normally spend my time on bikeradar.

I would just like to say that i think your a real inspiration to everyone, the strength and courage both you and Mrs Petesgaff have shown is truly amazing. If i could be half the person you are i'd be happy. Reading your updates and all the comments from others on here is a humbling experience. I honestly dont think anyone will view you as a "pussy" because you need physical contact with your wife Meg. I imagine that although you obviously have many friends and supporters it can be a very lonely place your in especially at 3am with your mind working overtime. Everyone needs someone or something as their support and she is blatantly the sun in your sky and i wish you both the best for you future together. I cannot finds the words or express my feelings enough on here to portray my admiration for you, more importantly the both of you.

You are not a coward, you are an amazingly brave person and if i were wearing a hat right now i'd be taking it off to you for sharing so publicly what i can only imagine have been your darkest and happiest days of your life.

Im sorry ive never met you (my lose) and i sincerely hope i have not offended you in any way by posting on here. All the best.

Don't under-rate the power of holding hands. Can you get the bean bag close enough to Meg's side of the bed (or corner if she does the starfish when on her own!) to hold her hand as you fall asleep? If you can - do it.

Language suggestion is brilliant - Michel Thomas does brilliant courses in lots of languages (mine are on CDs, but prob now on MP3 etc) that teach you how to speak without tying you in knots writing out vocab & grammar. It's like having a kindly, twinkly eyed uncle in the room with you. You'd have someone talking to you and you can talk back without being a mad person!

I could lend Mark our backup copy of MT's French course... <ahem>

Hi Mark,

Thanks so much for taking the time to update us all. It seems to me that you're doing fantastically well under extremely tough circumstances. I wholeheartedly agree with TN that there's no need to rush. Your scar will look "angry" for a fair while but will eventually settle down and you'll not really notice it. I felt the same way for a few months, showering and getting dressed was an exercise in distracting myself from the big slash down my front and it was a while before I could bring myself to wear V necks ... but now, I barely notice it, and when I do it makes me feel strong. Sometimes I wonder why other people are staring at my chest (yes, I am a girl, but I can assure you they are not staring for that reason ;o) and it takes me a few seconds to realise they're wondering what my story is. You will just forget about it in time, but I'm sure that will just happen naturally.

Delighted to hear how well you are doing walking wise - I think you are leaps and bounds ahead of most people so soon after heart surgery. Chapeau!

All the best,
Rona

If anyone wants to join me for a daytime ride along the seafront from Brighton to Worthing and back at any point please let me know.

Yep, I could be up for that if it's on a sat or sun (although not this sat)
The up at 3 am with negative thoughts doesn't sound good 😐 I would talk to a doctor about it - I'm sure there is something which you can take that will make you feel more relaxed and allow you to sleep better.

"[i]I have terrible body dysmorphia at the moment.[/i]"

I can well believe that, as I'm sure that as a PE teacher you are used to being both physically very fit, and also physically very active. But it seems to me that you are now slowly physically improving - increased walking, possibly cycling, etc, just give it time 8)

I'm in Brighton, and I like riding bikes! If you EVER fancy a gentle (or less gentle when you feel up to it) ride around brighton, Please do let me know, happy to give you a lift if you need it too (SO is in crowborough).

It would be great to meet you. (Pre 2010 STW Stag doooo ride!)

email in profile.

Cheers mate,

J

ooohh Airfix! happy days.
re: 3am can't sleep problem. Can I send over my end of month invoicing for you to do?

No you're no wuss, we all need physical contact of some sort-especially from loved ones and in tough or easy times.

(Sending a big singletrackworld hug and positive mental stuff)

Glad you're you're up and walking the dog!

only pussy on this thread is the bloke in my office currently who cries a bit every time he reads one of your updates.

You're an inspiration, keep going.

Mark - I can't really offer any helpful words about the issues you are having at the moment as I've never been in your position other than, and i'm sure i speak for everyone on here "virtual group hug" (in a manly kind of way 😉 )

I am however just along the coast in Worthing so when you do decide to go for a gentle spin on the seafront or, as JimboBrighton says, other less gentle spin when you feel up to it, let me know and I'll try to get myself over to Brighon to join you. It would be good to meet you 😀

e-mail address is in my profile 😀

Slightly closer to home (I think for you?) and us is the old Railway between Groombridge and Forrest row. Great Start ride because its nice and flat. The cafe in Forrest row does amazing ice cream, pizza and coffee. Me and my other half are free during the day as we both work from home. We would be honoured to go for a spin there with you or brighton.

Pete,

Hello, like Jimbo I'm in Brighton too and I can take time out in the week for a spin to Worthing & back - maybe a bite to eat in Carats too.

Let me know, I work flexi time and would only need a weeks notice to arrange a date. I can meet you anywhere in Brighton and it would be good to catch up with Jimbo again too if we manage to synchronise our dates with him.

Email in profile.

Take care

Hi Mark and family

Your walking more a day than most of us sitting on here I guess.

Don't rush your comeback. I wish I was somewhere near Brighton to help you back on your bike.

Maybe a short break from the north west is in order?

Right, now I've got the dust out of my eyes - again!
I struggle with words - I can but echo the words above that your strength and forthright approach to this are as inspiring as they are humbling...
Ok-advice time 🙂
Mrs MM is happy to teach you how to knit (or crochet.... )

Sleeping together.... Try getting an ubber bean bag for Meg as well - you could both then 'camp out' on the floor? Cuddling may be tricky but holding hands should be a lot easier?

Airfix- nah, I think you're more of a Meccano man myself - check out last nights James May programme on I-player for inspiration 🙂

scar - our little mate has a scar right around the base of his rib cage - he highly recomends BioOil (google it) for reducing redness....

Mark,

I'm sure you know my thoughts of admiration and unadulterated respect for your ability to put down what you think, what you feel and generally what's going with the old C. So, I'd second what Marsdenman has to say, grab another sleeping bag or two!!

Wish I lived closer to Brighton as i'd come down for a ride and a cuppa.

All the best to you both.

Jonathan

Hi Mark. I let the idle part of my brain work on your sleeping issues. These might bea little off the wall, but have you got an xbox / DS / PS type of thing. Dr kawazakis brain trainer is addictive, as is COD series. Or World of Warcraft, my fat friend Steve V , who had a heart attack became addicited during his convalesance. You may not be into online thngs as an outdoor type person, but its an idea. Or try jigsaw puzzles or puzzle books.
If you like reading then why not try the classics. Have you read Worthering heights or Great expectations etc
As for the scar, well , I set myself on fire a long time ago. Had to be blue lighted to A and E. I had very nasty burns from my chest to hairline. Had to wear some mesh dressings , and then keep them open for a few weeks. Everybody stared. I used Sudocream to help speed up the healing. I had to avoid mirrors at all costs as they caused nasty flashbacks, so turned them round . I was fine sitting at home, as I couldnt see the damage, no real lasting damage thanks the A and E staff , and shoving my head into a sink full of cold water pdq.

So keep telling yourself, 'Chicks dig scars' , and dont look at, if you are up at 3am get dressed in a low light so it wont stand out.
Keep walking , keep positive, and you WILL get better.

Hi Mark

Glad to hear you are doing so well!

With regard to your fear - don't worry about feeling that way it's all part of your journey and quite natural. I'm sure it can be a very dark space but at the end of each little tunnel you will be stronger. There may be lots of little tunnels each day but hopefully not too many.

Get outside as much as you can - daylight is a wonderful thing.

With regard to waking up i know this is a real dread - try a good light hearted book that takes you away from everything and an easy crossword book - make tea and have an early breakfast then maybe you will be able to go back to sleep.

Hope one of these may help. Still thinking of you both. Chin up x

keep on waking up Mark

sleep and wake when your body wants

bug people in other time zones

Jimbo, grazedknees, bigsi, Napalm;

Thank you guys. I'll be in touch quite soon if that's okay; I'm just waiting to get my bike back from being serviced, and then a little ride would be great for hearts and minds...

Had my second bout of chemo on Wednesday. To cut a very long story short, what should have lasted half a day turned out to be an all-dayer, with minor bollockings for the doctors and staff. After the bullshit way in which they told me the extent of my illness last week (i.e with no compassion, hope, etc) I was fired up and ready for combat. Meg and I are slowly formulating a plan for battling against a disease that simply doesn't seem to give up. Apparently I'm one of the youngest in the country to have ever been diagnosed with angiosarcoma of the heart.

Thank you all for your support. Everyday I check STW and the posts that you leave are both warm and a source of strength, and I'm not sure we (I) could do this without them.

Thank you friends,

M

I will be in the UK, near Brighton from the 24th Dec to the 6th Jan and would love to join you all if I could.
I'm also planning a hike of some sort too if fancy an alternative type of exercise?

All the best

roper

Keep posting it here. Whatever you want to say or offload - that's what we are on this post for. 🙂

Mark

Email me the wedding photos you want to see on here and I'll put them up for you no problem.

Email adrress but without the spaces is
johnmoore200 @ aol.com

Lets go in to the weekend in a good mood, we need it.

This thread has a lot of posts . . . .

1000 in fact 🙂

Cheeky! I was hoping Mark or Meg would get the 100th, but never mind.

Mark, you're doing the right thing. Keep battling no matter what. If you need cheerleaders I am sure we can find some for you, after all, half the people here have lycra clothing of some sort.

PICTURES!!!...

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To anticipate a couple of questions...
1. Mark is the one in the suit...... 😀
2. StAudries is the venue - Quantocks regulars will know it...

Not too much I can add that hasn't been said before. It really has put all my little problems into perspective. All the best in fighting this

I too am in Brighton (just moved down) and would love to join a gentle ride around the area (although not if it is like is was this morning!)

Oh and great photos!

Beautiful moments captured on film- gorgeous!

Great photos ! we need more please.

Fantastic photos, best of luck to you both!

Great to see these pictures.

Mark you look great, Dude dont let your mind lose a fight in the battle your body is going to win.

thats what i thought pigface. big strong healthy dude and his hot mrs in them photos and no mistake.

Absolutely wonderful!! Looks like a truly beautiful day for both of you!

Fantastic pics. Raise a glass to you both.

Looks like you had a fab day.

you could at least have shaved on your wedding day?

at least Mark made an effort though 😉

Hi Mark,

i've just been reading your threads, i've got to say, your a brave man, keep up the hard work, it's all you can do.
i saw your post about waking up at 3am and watching medical related tv, my friend has just gotten over breast cancer and she was the same, the only problem was that she was going through chemo etc at the same time as saint Jane Goody, this was good in one way as it was something she could really relate to but on the other hand it was also media-whoring at its worst and was not good for her morall.
i had just been reading Lance Armstrongs 'it's not about the bike' and passed this over to her to read as i found it to be one of if not the most inspirational thing i have ever read.
we all know about Lance and his battles on and off the bike but this had me in tears the whole way through.
Once she read it it was like a breath of fresh air, it didnt solve any problems but made her realise that she was not alone and that there are people out there who are willing to fight for what they want.
im glad to say that she is well on the way to recovery.

Im not saying that this book was in any way the cause of her beating cancer but i know that this book helped her understand that fear is natural and that we have to fight to survive (sorry about the cheese)

I would like to offer you my copy of this book as a gift to you for getting this far and being someone who is looking forward. (email me your address if you want it, addy in profile)

Also when i was 18 i had a cerebral haemorrage (stroke)...while riding my bike.
i lost all use of the left side of my body as well as use of speech.
i could not move or talk but when the ambulance came the most important thing on my mind was to make sure my bike was safe, the first words i managed (badly) was to take my bike home.
the one thing that i had to drive me forward, the one thing that i had as a goal was getting back on my bike and riding again.
it took over three months of learning to walk, talk, wriet and everything again. but that first moment on a bike was like switching on a light, i was back to being me.
it may have taken a long time to get back to fitness but being on a bike again was a sign that i had taken control of my life.

i hope that when you get on your bike again you feel as much joy as i did, just remember to take it easy.

i don't really know you, and like a lot of people who have posted on your thred, i doubt i will ever meet you.
but i am glad to have gotten to know you and i wish you all the best in your life

be strong my friend

4130Soul (and all the STW masses)

Getting a bit dusty again....

<sniffs>

😀

Looks like you and meg had a fantastic day keep up the fight, there are thousands of us out here who regularly read the update of how you two are doing and are all thiking of you and being inspried by the way you are handling the situation. May you both have very many happy years of marriage ahead.

Mmmm the bedside manner of some (not all) doctors eh!
It's great to see you went in there fighting and ready to face them.

As for the wedding photos - what can I say, beautiful, happy happy pictures.
Considering Meg chose that dress in 90 minutes it's a stunner. I suppose you could shop for weeks but when you find the right frock, that's the one.

Once again a big hug from us all in the bunnyhop household.
xx

Nice pics & congrats 😀

over a thousand posts for 4 pics!!!! Next time you can't sleep, go and stick some more up. Your audience demands more 🙂

blah blah all the best blah blah 🙂

Great pics guys, looks like it was a great day.

I look forward to meeting you for that bike ride as soon as your ready,,,, only just not in the same conditions as we have on the south coast today 😉

You see I'm not a fan of weddings, but those pics - they are fab. You both look brilliantly happy, nearly as happy as STW is that they are finally up!

Well done, hold on to the memory of how good you two obviously felt on that day, and continued good vibes to you both. 🙂

Great to finally see some photos, looks like a perfect day, Meg looks beautiful and Mark you look so well, you can beat the damn thing. Here's to you both, Cheers x

Wow you both look fantastic!!
[i]wipes tear[/i]

Meg, you look beautiful and Mark you look every bit as strong as your posts on here have shown you to be. Love and healing wishes to you both XX

Wow, stunning photos. 🙂
Think there's some dust floating round at TN Towers too...

Really nice man!

Tank

xx

Coolio - both or you!

Mark, you're looking a bit like the guy from the 'New Avengers' (not the curly haired one or the old bloke) in the walking down the stairs pic! 😉

Nice shots and looks like you had a great day.

Keep strong

Aww, great stuff. 😀

Great Pictures

BLOODY DUST!

Mark, whatever happens from here on in, after that day and with a wife as wonderful and beautiful as Meg you know you've already won first prize in the lottery of life.

Now just make sure you win it by a big distance.

Wow, stunning, stunning pictures. You both look amazing and so happy. We need more!

Wow, what can I say. Been away from this thread for too long.
Your attitude continues to be both humbling and amazing.
The photos of the wedding look great - I/we love the groom's speach one - Meg looks so happy.
All the best for your continuing treatment. Keep fighting and keep positive.
Our thoughts are with you.
Dave (and now Jenny too)

F*ck-Me, you look as strong as an Ox Mark! Are you really just pulling our legs with what you've been going through lately. Those pics are brilliant and you both look amazing.

Right, let's start planning the 1st Wedding Anniversary party - we're all coming you know 😉

We're all still sending you positive energy.

Keep smiling both of you.

Stu.

Total stars, the pair of you! 😀
Right! When's this post wedding stag do in Yorkshire??

Firstly, you both look lovely and I say that as a non-soppy fella. Secondly, isn't is great to have real, actual photo evidence showing mark NOT in shorts.
Aidan still thinks Meg is a princess (see dress). Mark, the four year old defeated you with swords but if it makes you feel any better he has just out balanced me on the Wii. 5 times.

Beautiful pictures! And Mark you look so well!! Amazing, keep up the good work. Thinking of you x

those photos look great are you sure your ill?? or have i missed out on the punchline. Anyway if you are ill i'm sure you'll be reet good soon. YOU CAN DO IT!!

FAB
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LOUS 🙂

teachermcnic - I wondered how long it would take you to pop you combined heads up on here! You'll be pleased to know that the card from the Park lot contained just a card and thankfully no underwear!!

Thanks for all the messages about how good Meg looked at the wedding. And thanks for the begrudging messages about how I look 'alright'...!

Back to business;

I went for my third chemo session at the Marsden yesterday. After the bloods were taken, and I'd performed my obligitory 'please sit here and wait whilst other people come in, get treated and leave before you' session I was finally sent through to start my treatment.

After having my premeds (steriods, piriton), which were higher than normal due to my allergic reation last week, the Paclitaxel (Taxol) was to be delivered at half the rate of last week, over two hours. Lo and behold, after ten minutes of delivery, I had another allergic reaction and the treatment was stopped. Cue several nurses umming and ahhing, and the calling for the oncologist.

After a polte argument about other techniques for delivery (according to her, very few; "You can come in as an in-patient Mr Fradgley, we'll flood your system 24 hours beforehand and hope that you don't have an allergic reaction")she stated that the drug wasn't actually the issue; apparently its the dye/liquid that they use in conjunction with the Paclitaxel that causes the reaction. So I argued that maybe they should replace that element instead. She and her team were obviously pretty exasperated with their non-conformist patient and retreated to the nurses station to talk.

Now heres the strange bit.

I'm on the list for approval for a drug called Caelyx. Apparently ts pretty difficult to get, and costly, so the Royal Marsden Team have to apply to my local PCT to pay for it before they can deliver it. We were informed originally that the state of play would be to have the Paclitaxel for 6 weeks, and by that time the Caelyx would hopefully be available, but both drugs would be used in conjunction with each other.
We've been waiting to hear about the Caelyx for ages, but with no news.

The oncologist walks out of the nurses station with a big smile, puts here hand on my shoulder and declares that unbelievably, the approval for the Caelyx has been approved and they can start next week with no more need to take the Paclitaxel.

I smell a rat. It's all a little to convenient for me. I cause a problem, ask too many questions and all of a sudden the drug that we'd specifically asked to be informed about the second it was approved miraculously comes on the scene? And I no longer need the Paclitaxel, even though they set it out in the original treatment? Hmmmmmm.......

There are apparently other ways in which Paclitaxel can be delivered without this dye/liquid. The oncologist must know this, yet nothing was said. Has anyone out there had other similar experiences? I need to know; I'm going to phone the hospital today and discuss. It seems that they actively encourage patients not to ask questions that are difficult to answer....

By the way, you all look lovely today.

Mark

Mark you truly are an inspiration. Keep on fighting!

On the other hand, you are getting the drug now...

Looking at the pics above you should be able to frighten the disease!

Good luck, keep fighting and look after Meg.

And thanks for the begrudging messages about how I look 'alright'...!

Great photos which clearly convey your happy day.

The best of luck to you both!