I am very sorry to read this, I lost my only son in similar circumstances (Cot Death, sudden infant death syndrome they called it) All I can say is be prepared for a lot of pain and grief, you are in shock now, next comes the inevitable questions that shake any belief you might have to the core and you won’t know what to do with yourself, it is the worse thing that can happen to a parent.
Needless to say you have to keep your act together for your family, neither me or you posting on internet forums is going to do much, suffice to say although it was some twenty odd years ago now, I know exactly what you are and about to be going through.
My email is in the profile, if you feel you need someone to just chat to please don’t hesitate to contact me I’ll give you my cel, it is an absolute hellish experience to have to deal with and one i can’t boast to have ever really recovered from, My Mrs handled it differently to me and wouldn’t talk, still doesn’t and you don’t want to dump on others so you end up dealing with it inwardly which can also **** you up in different ways which I’m happy to chat with you about.
But, like me you probably wont want to and that’s O.K., but I’m sincere in the offer.
What else can i say, all it does is open the wound, you have my very deepest sympathy.
