Mrs G passed away last night in her sleep
The service went well, as well as any funeral can. Thankyou to everyone again for all you have done, and thankyou for the STW card I received. Genuinely touched. I briefly met Saxonrider for the first time and saw Ambrose again. Apparently molgrips was coming but i didn’t see or meet him.
It is eerily quiet here tonight. Kids all doing their own things, happy as can be expected.
For the past couple of weeks, i have had people calling, phone calls, messages etc, but now nothing. I had something to focus on, things i had to do and a lot of stuff needed sorting. Now i have nothing to focus on, i am completely lost.
It is a sickening feeling. Now the day has arrived and the service and reception are over i suddenly feel very hollow. Completely empty.
Aside from the fact i still desperately want Lyanda back with me, and would do anything to make that happen, knowing i can’t, i am at a standstill. Numb even. I would rather have a lifetime of no sleep, running around and being called to help do things than another day of this.
At this moment in time i honestly don’t know how i will continue. How i am going to survive. How i will be a Dad and Mum to our children. I understand that i have to do these things, and it will slowly get easier day by day, but, the heart wrenching emptiness i feel inside is nothing i have felt before.Posted 5 days agoWhathaveisaidnowMember
i don’t have kids and often regret it,…cherish them, your wife lives on through them,..the sun is always shining behind the darkest cloud.
p.s. make sure there is always a toilet roll in the loo,..i’ve just had to do the dreaded spread eagle walk!
All the best.
KeithPosted 5 days agochoppersquadMember
Now could be the time to show your wife just how strong you really are.
You might not feel it, but make her proud.
Everyone on here including myself can’t help but be moved by everything you’ve gone through, and nothing would make me happier than knowing that you’re coping however hard that may be.Posted 4 days agorwb61Subscriber
I too have have no majic wand, but how you have dealt with what you have been through is amazing.
As so many have said time will help ,but also don’t be afraid of asking your children for help ,both practical and emotional, I’d be pretty sure through their grief they will also be thinking of you but possibly don’t know what to do, you giving them direction and including them may well help all of you.
Love and very best wishes to you all.Posted 4 days agofreeagentMember
So very sorry for your loss.
There is some great advice in various posts above, especially the comment about leaning on your kids a little for support – mine were amazing when my brother died a few years back, just sitting together on the sofa with a bowl of popcorn watching a daft film made me feel better.
Try to talk to people, speaking about it is difficult but it helps.
Soon after my brother died, a friend who’d recently lost her Mum explained loss to me in a way which has stuck in my mind.
Losing someone close leaves a hole in your life. to start with you get out of bed, immediately fall down the hole and spend all day trying to get out. it is exhausting, and you can’t see any end.
But then one day you get up, and try to jump over the hole, you slip, but manage to scramble out. This gets better every day, and eventually you can get up, acknowledge the hole, step over it and get through your day. You’ll have bad days when you fall straight down, but they gradually get less and less.
The hole is always there, but you learn to live with it.
take care and keep posting on here..
Matt xPosted 4 days ago
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