Kryton, to save you £6, you’ve broadly got rule #70 already when you said
its a measure of personal achievement
But you just have to find some part of it fun. There is no other point in doing it. Something has to get the adenaline going. The training might get you nearer to what you find fun. If you need to win to get fun out of it, then you might need to adjust your expectations.
For me, I turned up at my first open road race a couple of weekends ago. Sat in the bunch, concentrating hard on the wheels around, the sound of the bunch like a swarm of bees…..absolutely fantastic!