Thank you all for your messages. The past two and a bit weeks have been horrible, but I have been busy organising stuff and it’s kept me occupied. Who knew there was so much to do.
His funeral on Friday was perfect, it really was. We gathered in a beautiful green valley and the sun shone throughout the service, even though it had rained for days before and it rained for days afterwards. There were a few tears but mostly I saw lots of smiles and there was some laughter.
I just wish J had been there in a more active role to see just how lovely it was, and how many people came to say goodbye. I think he’d’ve approved.
Two of the funeral blokes said it was the nicest funeral they had ever attended and so many people came up to me afterwards and said the same – that they didn’t realise a funeral could be such a ‘happy’ occasion. I think that’s how it should be and a testament to what a nice bloke J was and what a pair of hippies we were. LOL.
Now all the organisation is over I think I am going to struggle with the loneliness. I know there are so many people there for me, that I am not alone, but it is funny how – even in a room full of people – you can suddenly feel so very lonely. I’ll get there though…
(Erm, thanks for listening. I think I just needed to get that out)
