You know, when the wind is howling, the rain lashing and you have a monster climb before you are home. Or you have hit the wall, cold tired etc. What do you do to pull through, focus or whatever.
Reason I ask I had this moment this evening. Kept thinking of the shower, sofa and then whiskey in front of the fire. I am now in front of the fire. Love it.
You are King of that hill. Everyone else is a wimp for not being there. Then just laugh at the absurdity of it all. Many people have made it through far worse adverse situations. It’s not that bad. Just keep turning those legs. More random thoughts… Oh look I’m nearly home.
Last time I had this was when I was 110 miles into a 150 mile ride and hadn’t slept for 24 hours.
I was driven on by the fact that the sooner I got home the less of a bollocking I’d get from the Mrs.
I used to kind of go into a neutral blank mindset and keep pedalling, and detach myself from the suffering. Recently for ‘life stuff’ I’ve found Grrrr seems to work pretty well. You can’t have too much Grrrr 😉
Main thing is to not think about the cold and tiredness and the wind, your body and DNA aren’t going to let you slump in a heap while out riding I don’t suppose, unless you bonk I guess. For that there’s Jelly Babies. 🙂
I picture the summer miles and absolutely ripping the legs off everyone I know on any given climb because I’ve been out all winter and in all weathers, suffering, putting in the miles while they were sat indoors getting weaker. It doesn’t necesarily work by the time the Summer comes around but who cares by then, it’s Summer, everything’s great and all the pain is forgotten.
If it’s sleeting and dark cycling back to Sheffield from near Burbage I zone out, it’s kind of bleak in that situation so there doesn’t seem like there’s very much else to do I guess, where sliding around in snow calls for a different kind of digging deep, a bit more ‘grrrr’ than zoning out.
I think of my dad going through his next chemo. His constant sickness, absolute fatigue, but knowing he can’t stop because quitting means giving up for good. And I think that no matter how shit I feel, it’s nothing in comparison, and above all I’m here because I want to be.
And I know I’m made out of bits of him, and I know for that reason I can go on. It’s only a bike ride, it’s not serious.
Chapeau Dad. Almost a year done since. Keep kicking it’s arse.
I think about my great great uncle Henry Bowers walking across Antarctica with Cherry Garrard and Wilson in the middle of winter on almost total darkness to collect penguin eggs. And then as if having completed “The Worst Journey In The World” he wasn’t enough he went on to meet his end on the pole journey while never once making any complaint about what they endured.
Relax the shoulders, straighten your back, stretch out, lift that furrowd brow, drop your jaw and then smile. Pace off, roll out for a couple of hundred meters whilst doing all of this then pace back on again.
I was just basking in the warm afterglow of a very satisfying soapy tit ****, when I noticed we were out of wine and fags..
The 24 hour garage near me stops serving booze at midnight and I had about 7 minutes to get there..
I think of my late best friend and riding buddy giving me s*** and buzzing my back wheel, I can often hear him in my head when out on rides, it always makes me smile widely and push like f***.