No worries mate, it helps to talk about I know and to talk about him aswell……. I’ve put below what I was going to send you, you might have already seen it. It helped me to understand what was going on because most of the time it just didn’t seem real, to have had the old boy around for 25 years and then for him to be gone?…. a strange feeling. Anyway here you are, abit sopey, but says alot…..
Death is nothing at all
I have only slipped away into the next room
I am I and you are you
Whatever we were to each other
That we still are
Call me by my old familiar name
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used to
Put no difference into your tone
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow
Laugh as we always laughed
At the little jokes we always enjoyed together
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was
Let it be spoken without effect
Without the ghost of a shadow on it
Life means all that it ever meant
It is the same as it ever was
There is absolutely unbroken continuity
Why should I be out of mind
Because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you for an interval
Somewhere very near
Just around the corner
All is well.
My e mail is tomouse.j@googlemail.com if you want a chat/friendly advice or anything
Take care mate