...and fallen head over heels in love with her. This woman 'gets' me, we love the same things, she's stunning, funny, wonderfully imperfect. seeing her smile lights up my whole life. What is even more amazing is that she seems to feel the same way; she tells me she loves me, that I'm her soul mate. I cannot describe the effect these words have on me. Incredible.
Just two tiny problems. Firstly, I'm happily (or so I thought, seriously) married. Two small children. A perfect life. Ha. Secondly; She's engaged to be married in three months, to a man who does, despite what I would like to think, deserve her. They have been together for nine years and have a two year old child also.
We haven't slept together. We haven't even kissed. Our friendship started innocently enough; chatting about what we initially had in common, our work and our children.
This is killing me. I know I can't split my family up for the sake of my own selfish needs. I wouldn't even ask her to split hers up. For what it's worth we have both said that we wouldn't think twice if it weren't for the children. But they put a very different slant on things.
Coping strategies, advice, similar experiences... all welcome. Also feel free to tell me to MTFU and crack on with the rest of my life; I am very aware that I am wallowing in a pit of self pity that is entirely of my own making.
Modz; New login for the sake of this touchy subject only, sorry.