Can only echo the above. Stay strong and fight that bugger.
Holds breath and types..... so, I've got cancer...
Hi! and erm... WOW!
Thank-you just does not begin to cover it (and being stuck for words, with tears in ones eyes does not help!)
A-Ha! Just plucked out a word - humbled, truly humbled just about begins to cover it.
As many have said, STW comes into it's own at times like this, your comments, words of support (on here and via text and e-mail!), stories of beating cancer really, really help. A confession - despite (i'm told) outward appearances, i'm not a natural when it comes to positivity, something I had just started working on (counselling) before this all hit. So, saying your words help takes on a stronger meaning for me... Counselling is still in progress thought the remit is a touch broader than it was! Talking about your own mortality, anyone? Not too sure Freud flagged that one in his musings!
I'll be sure to check the links and book suggestions and there are many comments I would like to pick up on but, forgive me, got to stop for now - it's teatime and my shoulder is killing me - to add insult to injury, i've a slipped disk in my neck. Whilst the discomfort caused by Tommy the Primary Tumour* and his friends is mostly controlled by the 20+ tablets I take each day there seems to be little they can do for the disk pain so it alone spends a lot of time getting, literally, on my nerves...
*said i'd stop but I feel there may be the odd sideways look at my naming my tumour!
he got his name early in this whole saga, came out of the blue. It's not there to avoid the word 'cancer' far from it - it's based on the mafia saying 'keep your friends close, your enemies even closer'. Tommy is really my personal reference, one thing I can assure you I do not avoid is the word 'cancer' - not at all.
More updates, and random musings, will follow.
Yours, truly humbled.
Mr (&Mrs) MM.
It's odd, people who I've never met receive this diagnosis every day and I know nothing about it and whilst I feel sorry for them in general terms it's not really an emotional response.
But when it's someone on stw it somehow becomes personal - I feel for them and and what they're facing and how their family must be feeling.
Maybe because it feels like it's someone from my community, regardless of whether I know them or not, we all share something on here and that makes everyone my friend when the chips are down.
Anyway, I can't really offer anything but thoughts for you and your family and the hope that you make a full recovery.
i think the above echoes my exact sentiments...
stay strong and get well soon!!
Just a little update...
Firstly, thanks again for further messages and e-mails, they really do mean a lot.
So, the last of the 4 batches of chemo finished this last Friday.
I'm a lucky guy - side effects, compared to many, are few, very happy to say I'm not suffering the sickness. The main things impacting me are appetite - food stuffs taste random / awful - the more bland the better at the moment. That said, fortunately, latte's and bacon butties taste fine Tiredness is the other - anything up to 16 hrs a day asleep is very strange indeed, well, it is for me.
Best news out of the hospital visits is the Long Wait we had we had been preparing for will not be that long at all - I'm in for a CT scan this Thursday. Back to see the specialists on Feb 11th. From that we should understand what impact this chemo has had and what the options are going forward. Fingers crossed etc. etc.
Glad you are coping, lets hope that this is a good omen for your future treatments, all the best and i hope the bacon butties remain on the menu! ;-). cheers marcus.
well done fellah, on the plus side the ridings f-king awful at the moment, Im so over rain and mud - so 16hrs sleep a day sounds like a better plan
Good luck matey. I look forward to hearing about you ripping up the trails again as soon as possible! Let us know how it goes and I'll have a glass to raise to you!
Excellent, please keep us updated by this thread.
Your attitude looks to be spot on, your family must be proud.
Thinking of you and yours ,wishing you every success in beating this
All the best for your treatment MM, really hope you do pull through it.
Chris - so glad you are eating something. More importantly you've got a scan booked in early.
We have fingers, toes and everything else crossed for your full recovery.
Looking forward to seeing you again.
Big hugs bunnyhop and nbt XX
Best of luck with the treatment. Stay strong!
Not sure I can add anything to the above, apart from my best wishes.
Don't think we've met, so I hope to see you on the trails some time. I'm not the most organised, so this probably won't be for 10-15 years or so.
See you then.
Any more news Chris on your latest hospital visits?
Gods, what a bummer! You're so young too. I send you my very best wishes. As said above, cancer is no longer the death sentence it once was. I send best wishes to your family too, in my (very limited) experience I think it's often worse for the family/partner as they have to watch a loved one suffer. I look forward to reading that the tumour(s) have gone and you are back on your bike. x
How I've missed this thread I don't know. Seriously, good luck with kicking its arse, from all at house vader.
Good luck with the results Chris.
Speak to the hospital nutritionist if you're worried about the food intake.
I'm impressed that you've managed to name yours in such a civil way. I tend to refer to mine as this ####er, c### or perhaps ######d. Never suffered from Tourettes until 'kin cancer strikes!
All of the best mate, we're with you.
ust a couple of positive anecdotes. I've a mate who's just undergone full on big style chemo sessions for hodgkins and he's got the all clear. A colleague has just had similar. Both unbelievably stoic and positive through it all (most of it anyway) despite pretty even prognoses at the outset. It can be beat. Treatment's improving all the time. Best of luck to you and your family
Am participating in a fund raising event for the Sir Bobby Robson Foundation weekend after next so feel free to spend some of that!
Positive story: My mum had lung cancer 4 years ago. Since treatment she now enjoys good health and is stable and getting on with things. She lives with the on-going situation with no apparent real problems.
Very best wishes to you and yours
Bunnyhop- I hope the shoulder is much better now?
Best wishes and thoughts to you and your family and friends. It's a sh*t disease, you're young, fit and positive and can beat it. As I type I'm off looking after my wife following major surgery for the first step of her treatment for breast cancer. Stay strong fella!
Bunnyhop- I hope the shoulder is much better now?Thanks Hora.
Best wishes to everyone else in the same boat as Marsdenman, I hope you all remain strong and get your health back asap.
Sorry to hear what you're going through. All the best and hope the treatment is a success for you.
You okay Marsdenman?
Hope you are ok dude
Hi all. I just met with Chris for a coffee, and he has asked me to post a quick update for him. The treatment has hit him hard and he's very tired all the time, which is why he's not been posting on here. He is bearing up brilliantly considering everything, and we had a lovely long chat about all sorts. He asked me to say thanks for all the kind messages of support he has received from you lot, both on here and privately. I'm sure he'll be along to update you all with more details in person as soon as he gets the time and the energy to do so.
I've been in touch with Chris too and echo the above.
He's had to endure some uncomfortable treatment, which would have had most people on their knees, however with Chris he has a certain personality to laugh it off as though it were nothing
Glad to hear he's hanging in there and I hope that the treatment he's receiving is working.
Hope you're all fine and well?
It's taken me a while to get my head in anyway straight enough to type this but, here goes, an update...
Firstly, thanks again to everyone for words of support etc. especially those who have contacted me directly - sorry I did not reply directly, my mind has mostly been anywhere but foreword...
Logically there is much more to this, but, having played this post over in my mind so many times, I figure simple is best...
Just before Easter we made the decision that there will be no more 'life extending' treatment for my cancer.
Since the original diagnosis we have always been well aware that the treatment available would likely have limited success. The scans etc that came after the 1st batch of chemo confirmed that the drugs were not working. Indeed, the cancer appeared to be spreading. At this point our oncologist advised that, locally, they could think of no further option they could offer but they set about speaking to other specialist centres. Word came back of another option for chemo but, again, it was stressed that positive results were not to be expected, still, you have to give these things a go.
Following the first dose of this second treatment my immunity levels hit rock bottom and I ended up in hospital. Fortunately, what was initially thoughts to be a new, large, aggressive, tumour turned out to be a bad infection, the legacy of which turns out to be a blood clot on my, until now 'good' right lung. Better the clot than the tumour...
So, as the chemo was leaving me feeling rubbish and wide open to further infection etc it was time to revisit a conversation Sharon and I had had before. Quite simply 'quality or quantity'. Quality was kind of a known position - appetite better, not as tired, generally feeling so much better in myself. Quantity - bottom line is, no one knows how long I'm likely stick around, chemo or not.
Decision made, we spoke with our oncologist. He agreed with us.
So, there you have it.
Big decision made but, I've not been this happy for a good while. I get scared I every day. I'm happy every day...
Life is as good as it can get.
The support of a truly amazing wife, family and friends humbles me every day.
As for the NHS, Macmillan, Kirkwood hospice etc etc I do not know where to start....
Shit. Not much else I can say about that one, pretty much sums it up.
(Edit: best wishes obviously to you and your wife, but that just sounds a bit weak when hearing of your decision.)
Not much to say, but you've made a decision, and who can say that isn't right?
Thinking of you and your family.
Again, I find myself feeling very humbled by your courage. I admire and respect your decision, as your wife and family do too.
Wishing you love and continuing happiness.
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