Sometimes it’s fine. Plus, it means you don’t have to share 18yr old malts. That stuff costs money don’t you know. 😉
A few beers here and there on your tod in theory is ok.
If it is a regular part of your day and you are drinking to excess then probably not so good.
That fact you are thinking it may not be good is a good sign.
There are plenty of people who can help with stuff like this, it’s dead common.
If you need numbers or anything then give me a shout, the lass works as an OT and has specialised in alchohol problems. (this isn’t me telling you you have a prob btw as i have no idea etc)