Not bothered if it never happens as i'm very happy living on my own and doing what i want, when i want without having to ask or clear it wi someone else first, did have a semi serious relationship 5 yrs ago but that went tit's up due to catching her humping someone else and there's been now't since, not even a one night stand as i just can't be **** or bothered wi the hassle despite having at least a dozen opportunities this year so far.
I've never wanted kids and being 41 and not owning my own house along wi having two badly paid jobs doesn't help as i guess women expect someone of my age to be able to afford holidays and a certain lifestyle but i tend to shun all that and i couldn't give a flying **** bout' having money so that tends to put them off, i like my work that i do (chocolatier & bike shop mechanic) and i like and really get on wi the folk i work with - i get to make up my own hours and if i want a day off at anytime to go riding or something else that's fine - no probs in the slightest, so what if i get paid very poorly? - i enjoy going to work so i figure that counts for so much more than having cash in the bank (of which there's now't), i have a good life, good friends, nice bikes, live in the middle of nowhere in Galloway and i can't honestly say when the last time i was unhappy/bored/fed-up/annoyed was.......
.....although after saying all that there is someone i have recently started to ride with that is fitter than me, can ride just as good as (or better) than me, is very-very fit (as in wow - she's fit!), a really good laugh, is very independent herself and similar values and wants...........she's a good few years younger (10ish) but i dunno?....i'm very happy wi just myself and doing things my way so it's kinda threw me a curve ball as i have actively not gone out my way to encourage or put myself in any situation where the opportunity to perhaps take it any further would ever come up and to be honest i dunno if i will but i'll trundle on as it is at the moment as it's a good laugh and a break from the norm.
So......have i given up? - not as such but i'm certainly not searching for it.