OK September has not been the best month of my life…actually that is a minor understatement.
My girlfriend of over 5 1/2 years has just ended it, saying she is no longer in love with me. She has moved out of my house and taken her child (obviously) and the dog and what used to be a loud fun place, just has me rattling around in an empty shell.
I know all the analogies i.e. more fish in the sea and such the like, but I am totally and utterly gutted. I thought I would spend the rest of my life with her ya know. I used to day dream away and make great plans for us; I used to think I could achieve anything with her strength by my side. She was IMHO the most beautiful and smartest woman I had ever met and I thought this is it, she is the one.
Now I feel like a right miserable bastardo just moping around my house, I should be getting on with work and stuff but I can’t seam to concentrate on anything for long enough without thinking about her, the kid and the mutt.
I assume the pain will dull with time, however it is pretty raw now and I am not sure of the best way to clear my head so I can get on with….well life.
Sorry I know this will probably not be the most fun post you will have read in a while, but I thought some folks out there might have some helpful advice.
To make it worse, two weeks before she ended it some theiving git stole my hardtail, so I can't even go out and blast my crappy mood away. I have also received a pay reduction in work cause of the recession and can’t afford another. To tell you all the truth I am glad to see the back of September 2009.
If anyone can top my month of poo you are welcome to share the pain.