Chris,
I’m a fellow fatty that’s trying to come good. I got back into cycling through some friends about 8 months ago.
I also felt self conscious the first time I was out round Dalby but have to say that everyone I came across were massively supportive. People could see I was finding it tough going uphill but every single group of people who passed me had a positive or encouraging comments which were a real boost. I’m getting quicker by a little every time and loving it. I still feel self conscious when going out with friends who are much fitter than me because I hate holding them up but they are great blokes and very patient so I’m lucky to have them.
I also can’t get out on my mtb as often as I’d like but miss the cycling so have bought a road bike and now go out on it every Sunday morning and have a set 22 mile route around East Yorkshire. I was really self conscious starting out on that as with my size I look a bit like one of the incredibles riding a toy bike coupled with the fact that this area is a Mecca for Lycra clad groups going like the clappers. I really was worried about what they would think.
I needn’t have bothered… Most of the people that have passed me when going uphill always offer encouragement and it is a real uplift. Only a few groups haven’t said a passing hello or acknowledged me but they were all quite busy and focusing on their own stuff – they are very much the minority though.
As for breaking kit, nah….. You’ll be changing stuff long before you wear it out. The only thing I notice is you have to pump tyres up harder to avoid punctures and you might ding the wheels quicker.
Only thing I would say is get a bryton or garmin etc and log your rides. It really is encouraging when you beat your previous time round and you don’t feel as buggered as you did last time.
Good luck!
Luffy