met my old man after a long hiatus (nearly 20 years)still see him fairly regular now but a bit strained not sure we will ever be proper family but life ios too short to be bitter IMHO. He as an utter c0ck though and he has been told this in no uncertain times, accepts this and has apologised for this… the little child who grew up without a dadddy cannot forgive him ever, the father I am now cannot fathom how he left his kids and the adult I am now tries to work at it but it is difficult