Would you not be better off seeing a specialist, instead of some “guru” on an easy money making scheme ?
Plenty of New Age Navel Gazing tomes out there, pick any one, turn to chapter 2, page 18, paragraph 4 and transpose that with at least 30 other books claiming to do the same thing.. all at the same chapter and paragraph.
A proper specialist proven in your condition, with accreditation, will be targeted and direct.
You must have done some research, you’re an intelligent bloke, clearly you can see the absolute similarities between all this “mindfulness” craze.
Seek professional help, it’ll cost you less in the long run.