You’re in Norway paddling with your mates, but you’re out of practice and they’re not. You’re in a new boat. The rapids are quite continuous. You miss the eddy, you’re now at the front. You’re crashing through waves, trying to spot the next eddy, trying to slow down. The boat’s unstable you capsize, you roll again, but you’re still at the front of the group; don’t know where to go. Over another wave but there’s a big stopper behind it, you get pumelled a bit bt eventually roll again, but you’re tired. No letup in the rapids. You can’t pull it together, then next time you capsize your roll fails on every attempt. You get a couple of breaths of air and pull the deck. You’re swimming in glacial melt water high in the Norwegian plateau in a cag, shorts and neoprene shoes. You try to swim to the bank but get disorientated. The next stopper pummels you down onto the river bed, you bash your back on the rocks on the river bed. Your shoes get sucked off by the current and you’re now barefoot. You try to put your feet up in front of you as the current takes you on. They take the impact of the next rock and one of your little bones breaks in your foot. But you don’t notice as you’re freezing cold and trying to get a breathe of air. You’ve been in the water many minutes now, swum almost 3km. Nearly the full length of the section. You scrabble to cling onto a rock at the side of the river, but the current takes you away, dislocating your finger as it goes. You try to reach the side but don’t make it. The rest of the group are round about you screaming, you grab the loop on the nearest boat and kick for the river bank. But you’re into another stopper and the kayak you’re grabbing capsizes wrenching your hand. You try again but the grab loop is too small to get your hand in. You’re tired and cold and have little strength. You remember the crux of this river is right by the get out. 4 big holes one after the other. Your legs are battered to shit. You try to get to the side but again get dragged back in. You’re only 100m from the hard rapid and you know you won’t get through it alive. Someone else come along with the back of their boat “grab it, grab it” c’mon.
But you’ve got no strength left, you’re full of water and can taste only river. You manage to gasp to them that you’re too ****. You can’t do it. You know you can’t hold on to that loop any more and you know the last rapid is coming right up. Why did you go to Norway after a year without paddling…. why did you take a new boat you hadn’t used before… why did you try to mix with the big dogs when you’re just an office boy…