Due to be made redundant next week (have a meeting on Wednesday which I think has only one outcome). Thought I was pretty blase about the whole thing - in some senses I'm actually quite happy to go as I get a decent payoff and can afford not to find another job for a long time. It would mean I had lots of time over the summer to train in a way I haven't done since kids and get other stuff done. Not only that, but there's plenty of jobs around for my skills - will be applying for one straight away (though wanting part time and flexibility for childcare makes things tougher).
So why am I feeling so down about the whole thing? I have other issues in my life which don't help, and have been ill this week, but ended up retiring from an event today due partly to how I'm feeling (I'd already screwed up big time, but that was probably also down to my mental state).

