Realised the other day that since me n the misses split 3 months ago i have been wasting both time and money on way too much weed and beer, so 3 days ago i made the decision to stop, then this morning while stock taking i lost all vision in my left eye went very dizzy and couldnt stand, fortunatly (or not) i was on my own in the shop so just sat on the floor untill my head sorted its self out and then got on with my day as best i could,
this evening i spent some time with a few mates i have known since i split with the ex and realised that if im going to do this whole detox and sorting of my life then these people cant be part of my social life.
im now in a flipping huge mess and cant sleep because i have been using the beer and weed to get me to sleep, but at least i have realised what i need to do and im just going to get on with it! but on the flip side, the ride home was a lot easier tonight due to not drinking or smoking! so at least there is one positive out of this! meh! :s