Rather a personal subject but as a prelude to reduced posting in 2014 as a bi product of trying to focus more at work, become a road racer and more importantly provide added quality time with my family, I want to get some advice.
I have an anxiety and stress led personality. An recent flip out at work, questions about career direction based on my fraught personality and some family issues have led me to look at others I consider to be laid back simply to the point and generally enjoying life without considerable worry and be envious of that. I'd really like to work on achieving that myself. I'm the type of guy that frets about (well everything) turning the light out after my wife as she leaves a room, or stresses over a missed riding opportunity.
The thing is, it's wearing me out mentally, it causes me to rush through my day and as a result I lose focus on or never achieve individual tasks, am impatient tired and stressed. I need to change it.
Some things I've tried / trying are reading of various books (Steve Peters for example), I do plenty of exercise - 100k plus per week on a bike, walking etc, eat healthy with a treat day built in, I've tried CBT led meditation, alcohol reduction / omission - but it all feels just "wired in" to my head. I also have a Cavendish like ability to either say things at the wrong time or be radically misconstrued, partly due to a very dry SOH and partly an inability to get it right.
My wife says "just chill out a bit" - I wish it was so easy., and sometimes I feel like this is just me and I'll have to live with it.
So what better than to post this on a bike forum full of amateur psychologists.