I’ve always been a winter miles / summer smiles person but this last few months, I just haven’t been arsed, it dropped off at the end of last year after my Mum died and although I’ve been out a few times since Christmas, I honestly haven’t really enjoyed it. Partly because by not being out I’ve lost what semblance of fitness I had and it’s really hard, the tracks are mucky, the weather’s cold, and so on.
I keep feeling I OUGHT to – even get the kit out the night before, and then think **** it. And then feel worse because I didn’t.
Right now I’m trying to suppress that feeling of being a loser but at the same time not force myself out because I might then start to hate riding. Allowing myself some time off – I’ve barely had more than a holiday length of time away from the bike in 25 years – and see whether when the weather gets a bit better the desire comes back.