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I've began writing a book based on my little walk this spring/summer and have seen publishing it in a blog, so i get a little feed back and inspiration to keep writing.
So far it's only been read via my FB links, i wanted to share and receive opinions from friends of mine.
Well it turns out friends of friends of friends, etc, have been taking a look, this i don't mind.
I started to get a few positive comments, urging me to write more...
I had a long gap between posting, then got another comment.
Please can you keep going. I check everyday in hope that you have carried on writing. I have walked part of the coast path and one day hope to complete the walk. I also have low days and wish at times my life would come to an end. Whilst walking the path I have found peace. I wish I was as brave as you have been and could walk and keep walking. Thank you for sharing your experiences, it's amazing reading
I replied with thanks and left the reader my e-mail for them to contact me if they wished to.
I went onto post the next bit of my story and deleted my comment to them. I felt i'd honoured their request and didn't want to pressure them into contacting me.
Shortly after this, they replied with a comment apologising for not contacting me, leading me to give my mail again.
Turns out this person has led a very similar life to mine, almost infact mirroring mine.
However he was closer to he dad and has developed a heart condition from an infection, therefore worse off than me.
It's turns out he wrote me a mail but never got round to sending it due to not feeling ready to share everything with me, he was very low at this point.
So low that at the weekend he decided to OD, he'd tried before and failed, so this time he aimed to take more, just wanting to fall asleep and not to wake up again.
Fortunately he thought of his two children and losing hid dad,he wanted to be there for them and called the samariatians, spoke for them for ages and followed their advice. Calling them 24hr later, not because he was trying to kill himself, but just to go over what he needed to do and just to talk.
He's now more focused and determined to get through it, but i can't help worrying.
Just because someone says they're ok in a message, doesn't mean they are, i know this from personal experience.
He knew of me through mutual friends and found my blog through them too.
He hasn't told me who they are, but i know who they are from googling his name and finding a article on him, with my friend during a fund raising event.
I hope this friend put him onto my blog to maybe help him.
But as he never told me who he knows me through, i feel i'll be breaking his trust to contact them with my concerns for him, as he's not yet replied to my mail to him.
It's only been a day since my reply, but doesn't stop me worrying.
Guess i just wait and hope.
I just kinda wanted to share this as it's a little relevant to recent events and subjects on here.
It's good to talk..
Sharki
i think that if we've learned anything from posts/events etc over the last few months regarding the issues around mental health and so on, it's that it is a lot more common than many people realise for us to be struggling with ourselves. for me, even just knowing this helps me to keep my head up.
i am constantly in awe of, and humbled by those of us that are fighting their own demons in whatever way they can and yet still find the time/strength to think about others going through similar. it's truly inspirational.
i hope this chap is okay.
I wouldn't stress about it; you've already helped. And he's right about your writing too.
Put me on the list of those who want the book. I kid you not, whenever it leaves the printers.
Thanks Stu.
Yes, i know i've done enough all ready.At the end of his e-mail, he did come across as very positive and gave me an invite to his place if i return to Somerset.
The whole letter really touched a nerve and i found strength from it too.
Hairy.
That might be along way off, perhaps a couple years.
I may use Lulu or another online publisher, save getting a massive box of unwanted book made up.
It'll take alot of proof reading and editing too. Kinda the reason i'm blogging it, i'd rather find out where i've gone wrong and learn from it at this stage.
If you are comfortable with it why not have a chat with the Samaritans about it? They are there to try to help with all aspects of suicide. If they can't help directly they will have contacts. If he is comfortable talking to you then maybe they could help you with decisions like you mention in your post?
Cheers roper.
Sharki, I'm not in the hurry at all. As and when, you know.
Am happy to proof read.
(sorry I've not followed you stuff more closely, but I don't do FB). It would distract me from STW 😉
No need to do FB it's on blogger.
If you've not seen it, i'll mail you a link.
In fact i will just because.
I would love to help with illustrations for the book. I'm struggling at the moment in the mornings. Hate this time of year. Praise to those who speak out and those who listen when they do, I wouldn't be here if not for my friends and family.