Erm, with the big 6-0 being but 2 months away, I feel………what the hell? Can’t change it, can’t fight it, but can find ways of ‘just being’ – to the max.
Am more physically fit than I’ve been for about 20 years, thanks to riding more. Not technically particularly impressive rider, and yes, I do fall off sometimes, and yes, it can hurt, but whatever – it’s just great to be out there, 2 wheels, suspension and rider interacting with the terrain and loving the wildlife and views. Never had much of a competitive streak, and that’s largely absent now.
And then there’s everything else – my passions and enthusiasm seem as strong as ever, and I feel more confident in my thoughts than ever I did in my 20s and 30s. Love wild music of all genres (WOMAD regular for over 20 years), love strange movies, challenging ideas. Am at least as leftie/radical as I was in my teens and twenties, and now less worried about speaking out against something that seems to me unjust. What the hell – why not? You only have one life!
And then there’s love and sex…….still seem to be interested in all of that, and still love women (though seem more capable of managing to be faithful than I did – perhaps having flings was partly a symptom of feeling insecure when younger, and always believing the grass must be greener……)
Hey-ho – just live it Phil!