Death of 2 close friends 1 week apart,, split up, got dvt, ex had cancer(after breakup), father had camcer scare,put on 3 stone, can't even look at my bike.
The good news, if you can call it that, is that your depression doesn't sound as if it's 'chemical' to me, life has thrown a lot of crap at you which would easily make the average person depressed.
Yes securing mental health treatment under the NHS can be quite a struggle these days, but once you are finally in the system the care is probably very satisfactory. Unfortunately pills are a lot cheaper than counselling, but it sounds to me that you might need a helping hand with sensible and practical solutions to finding a way to move on with your life.
In the meantime exercise.......get out there and do as much as you can, even if it's just a brisk long walk. Of course it will be the last thing you fancy doing, because of your depression, but exercise will work far better than anti-depression, it's just that it requires more effort than just swallowing pills.
Exercise is the anti-depressant .... exercise and depression do not mix, just like oil and water don't.
Also as previously suggested, if it all gets just too much and you hit a crises/rock bottom, don't hesitate to call the Samaritans - just talking to someone for a couple of minutes can change everything.
IMO
Good luck. Be strong. Do what's right.
) and couldnt be happier, 2 months into a complicated broken collar bone that has stopped me from riding has made no difference,,,,,,,, 1 day when its sorted i will be back out rain or shine and I CANNOT WAIT TO FEEL THAT BUZZ AGAIN.
