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Hi Mark. I let the idle part of my brain work on your sleeping issues. These might bea little off the wall, but have you got an xbox / DS / PS type of thing. Dr kawazakis brain trainer is addictive, as is COD series. Or World of Warcraft, my fat friend Steve V , who had a heart attack became addicited during his convalesance. You may not be into online thngs as an outdoor type person, but its an idea. Or try jigsaw puzzles or puzzle books.
If you like reading then why not try the classics. Have you read Worthering heights or Great expectations etc
As for the scar, well , I set myself on fire a long time ago. Had to be blue lighted to A and E. I had very nasty burns from my chest to hairline. Had to wear some mesh dressings , and then keep them open for a few weeks. Everybody stared. I used Sudocream to help speed up the healing. I had to avoid mirrors at all costs as they caused nasty flashbacks, so turned them round . I was fine sitting at home, as I couldnt see the damage, no real lasting damage thanks the A and E staff , and shoving my head into a sink full of cold water pdq.
So keep telling yourself, 'Chicks dig scars' , and dont look at, if you are up at 3am get dressed in a low light so it wont stand out.
Keep walking , keep positive, and you WILL get better.
Hi Mark
Glad to hear you are doing so well!
With regard to your fear - don't worry about feeling that way it's all part of your journey and quite natural. I'm sure it can be a very dark space but at the end of each little tunnel you will be stronger. There may be lots of little tunnels each day but hopefully not too many.
Get outside as much as you can - daylight is a wonderful thing.
With regard to waking up i know this is a real dread - try a good light hearted book that takes you away from everything and an easy crossword book - make tea and have an early breakfast then maybe you will be able to go back to sleep.
Hope one of these may help. Still thinking of you both. Chin up x
keep on waking up Mark
sleep and wake when your body wants
bug people in other time zones
Jimbo, grazedknees, bigsi, Napalm;
Thank you guys. I'll be in touch quite soon if that's okay; I'm just waiting to get my bike back from being serviced, and then a little ride would be great for hearts and minds...
Had my second bout of chemo on Wednesday. To cut a very long story short, what should have lasted half a day turned out to be an all-dayer, with minor bollockings for the doctors and staff. After the bullshit way in which they told me the extent of my illness last week (i.e with no compassion, hope, etc) I was fired up and ready for combat. Meg and I are slowly formulating a plan for battling against a disease that simply doesn't seem to give up. Apparently I'm one of the youngest in the country to have ever been diagnosed with angiosarcoma of the heart.
Thank you all for your support. Everyday I check STW and the posts that you leave are both warm and a source of strength, and I'm not sure we (I) could do this without them.
Thank you friends,
M
I will be in the UK, near Brighton from the 24th Dec to the 6th Jan and would love to join you all if I could.
I'm also planning a hike of some sort too if fancy an alternative type of exercise?
All the best
roper
Keep posting it here. Whatever you want to say or offload - that's what we are on this post for. 🙂
Mark
Email me the wedding photos you want to see on here and I'll put them up for you no problem.
Email adrress but without the spaces is
johnmoore200 @ aol.com
Lets go in to the weekend in a good mood, we need it.
This thread has a lot of posts . . . .
1000 in fact 🙂
Cheeky! I was hoping Mark or Meg would get the 100th, but never mind.
Mark, you're doing the right thing. Keep battling no matter what. If you need cheerleaders I am sure we can find some for you, after all, half the people here have lycra clothing of some sort.
PICTURES!!!...
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To anticipate a couple of questions...
1. Mark is the one in the suit...... 😀
2. StAudries is the venue - Quantocks regulars will know it...
Not too much I can add that hasn't been said before. It really has put all my little problems into perspective. All the best in fighting this
I too am in Brighton (just moved down) and would love to join a gentle ride around the area (although not if it is like is was this morning!)
Oh and great photos!
Beautiful moments captured on film- gorgeous!
Great photos ! we need more please.
Fantastic photos, best of luck to you both!
Great to see these pictures.
Mark you look great, Dude dont let your mind lose a fight in the battle your body is going to win.
thats what i thought pigface. big strong healthy dude and his hot mrs in them photos and no mistake.
Absolutely wonderful!! Looks like a truly beautiful day for both of you!
Fantastic pics. Raise a glass to you both.
Looks like you had a fab day.
you could at least have shaved on your wedding day?
at least Mark made an effort though 😉
Hi Mark,
i've just been reading your threads, i've got to say, your a brave man, keep up the hard work, it's all you can do.
i saw your post about waking up at 3am and watching medical related tv, my friend has just gotten over breast cancer and she was the same, the only problem was that she was going through chemo etc at the same time as saint Jane Goody, this was good in one way as it was something she could really relate to but on the other hand it was also media-whoring at its worst and was not good for her morall.
i had just been reading Lance Armstrongs 'it's not about the bike' and passed this over to her to read as i found it to be one of if not the most inspirational thing i have ever read.
we all know about Lance and his battles on and off the bike but this had me in tears the whole way through.
Once she read it it was like a breath of fresh air, it didnt solve any problems but made her realise that she was not alone and that there are people out there who are willing to fight for what they want.
im glad to say that she is well on the way to recovery.
Im not saying that this book was in any way the cause of her beating cancer but i know that this book helped her understand that fear is natural and that we have to fight to survive (sorry about the cheese)
I would like to offer you my copy of this book as a gift to you for getting this far and being someone who is looking forward. (email me your address if you want it, addy in profile)
Also when i was 18 i had a cerebral haemorrage (stroke)...while riding my bike.
i lost all use of the left side of my body as well as use of speech.
i could not move or talk but when the ambulance came the most important thing on my mind was to make sure my bike was safe, the first words i managed (badly) was to take my bike home.
the one thing that i had to drive me forward, the one thing that i had as a goal was getting back on my bike and riding again.
it took over three months of learning to walk, talk, wriet and everything again. but that first moment on a bike was like switching on a light, i was back to being me.
it may have taken a long time to get back to fitness but being on a bike again was a sign that i had taken control of my life.
i hope that when you get on your bike again you feel as much joy as i did, just remember to take it easy.
i don't really know you, and like a lot of people who have posted on your thred, i doubt i will ever meet you.
but i am glad to have gotten to know you and i wish you all the best in your life
be strong my friend
4130Soul (and all the STW masses)
Getting a bit dusty again....
<sniffs>
😀
Looks like you and meg had a fantastic day keep up the fight, there are thousands of us out here who regularly read the update of how you two are doing and are all thiking of you and being inspried by the way you are handling the situation. May you both have very many happy years of marriage ahead.
Mmmm the bedside manner of some (not all) doctors eh!
It's great to see you went in there fighting and ready to face them.
As for the wedding photos - what can I say, beautiful, happy happy pictures.
Considering Meg chose that dress in 90 minutes it's a stunner. I suppose you could shop for weeks but when you find the right frock, that's the one.
Once again a big hug from us all in the bunnyhop household.
xx
Nice pics & congrats 😀
over a thousand posts for 4 pics!!!! Next time you can't sleep, go and stick some more up. Your audience demands more 🙂
blah blah all the best blah blah 🙂
Great pics guys, looks like it was a great day.
I look forward to meeting you for that bike ride as soon as your ready,,,, only just not in the same conditions as we have on the south coast today 😉
You see I'm not a fan of weddings, but those pics - they are fab. You both look brilliantly happy, nearly as happy as STW is that they are finally up!
Well done, hold on to the memory of how good you two obviously felt on that day, and continued good vibes to you both. 🙂
Great to finally see some photos, looks like a perfect day, Meg looks beautiful and Mark you look so well, you can beat the damn thing. Here's to you both, Cheers x
Wow you both look fantastic!!
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Meg, you look beautiful and Mark you look every bit as strong as your posts on here have shown you to be. Love and healing wishes to you both XX
Wow, stunning photos. 🙂
Think there's some dust floating round at TN Towers too...
Really nice man!
Tank
xx
Coolio - both or you!
Mark, you're looking a bit like the guy from the 'New Avengers' (not the curly haired one or the old bloke) in the walking down the stairs pic! 😉
Nice shots and looks like you had a great day.
Keep strong
Aww, great stuff. 😀
Great Pictures
BLOODY DUST!
Mark, whatever happens from here on in, after that day and with a wife as wonderful and beautiful as Meg you know you've already won first prize in the lottery of life.
Now just make sure you win it by a big distance.
Wow, stunning, stunning pictures. You both look amazing and so happy. We need more!
Wow, what can I say. Been away from this thread for too long.
Your attitude continues to be both humbling and amazing.
The photos of the wedding look great - I/we love the groom's speach one - Meg looks so happy.
All the best for your continuing treatment. Keep fighting and keep positive.
Our thoughts are with you.
Dave (and now Jenny too)
F*ck-Me, you look as strong as an Ox Mark! Are you really just pulling our legs with what you've been going through lately. Those pics are brilliant and you both look amazing.
Right, let's start planning the 1st Wedding Anniversary party - we're all coming you know 😉
We're all still sending you positive energy.
Keep smiling both of you.
Stu.
Total stars, the pair of you! 😀
Right! When's this post wedding stag do in Yorkshire??
Firstly, you both look lovely and I say that as a non-soppy fella. Secondly, isn't is great to have real, actual photo evidence showing mark NOT in shorts.
Aidan still thinks Meg is a princess (see dress). Mark, the four year old defeated you with swords but if it makes you feel any better he has just out balanced me on the Wii. 5 times.
Beautiful pictures! And Mark you look so well!! Amazing, keep up the good work. Thinking of you x
those photos look great are you sure your ill?? or have i missed out on the punchline. Anyway if you are ill i'm sure you'll be reet good soon. YOU CAN DO IT!!