Ugh. Sorry for your loss. She’s a bonnie girl.
There is an adage in skydiving circles, “those who do can’t explain, those who don’t can’t understand.” I think that’s desperately true with pets, there are some who would have the attitude of “it’s only a dog/cat/gerbil/goldfish” but when you lose a companion of years if ****ing hurts regardless of how many legs it has. All I can say is, know that you gave her a good life whether it’s twenty years or a weekend.
I really should dust in here.