I’ve added another post tonight about my relationship with failure and that I think, and hope, that it’s changing based on the process I’m going through.
I've added another post this lunch time - its taking me longer and longer to write these as I take a more in-depth view and try to properly understand what it is I mean.
I'm close to writing up my next system i.e. the Realisation and Intervention systems, but its taken me a while to understand them. I think my latest post 'Deepest Desires' has found the answer. That said its getting difficult to communicated these properly.
I have struggled on and off with depression and anxiety since 2011, I had a relapse last September and I had to get back on my medication after a couple of years free, seemed to work until Christmas when I started to suffer more. I have been trying to find other ways to get well rather than just increase my medication, someone mentioned the Win God method, I have only done the cold shower fully but it has really helped, I plan to start the breathing to see if that helps. It seems to help me have a calm mind.
Sorry spell check that should be Wim Hof method!!
Breathing defo does help; I've started breathing and working on the core with my Physio; it really does work.
Belly breathing/box breathing. i.e. breathing deeply in to belly and then up in to Sola Plexus to activate the diaphragm really does help.
I haven't posted on my blog for some time and it continues to be difficult. I almost don't want to write negative posts all the time.
But this time work can really go shove it self...I am without doubt heading back to where I was before I had my breakdown.
How do you rationalise your mental health against your parental responsibilities. i.e. paying for mortgages and looking after your family. How do you mentally justify a change...am I just scared?
This week my daughter told me that I can't eat my self better after she found the empty box of angel cake slices in the recycling. From a 9yo it was both funny and very telling.
Hi All,
I'm not sure if me posting is still of help to anyone but I'll keep posting as and when I have something to say.
Last week I started struggling again as the pressure got to me once more; I've added a post about this to my blog.
Its time for a change, a change is needed and I can't sit here for another 30 years working out what to do. I have requested dropping to a 3 day a week at work; its a massive financial risk but the long term health risks outweigh that.
I've decided to set up my own you tube channel and see where that takes me...I've got 35 years left to work....what one could do with that time?
So, the 3 day working week has been agreed; this is my last week of full time working and any semblance of financial freedom. At this stage the 3 day working is a temporary condition over 3-6 months.
At this stage I can't see me every wanting to go back; at any rate we'll have to see where this takes me; it could be an amazing start to something new although I have no idea what that is...
I've just written a new post about being angry about the current norm; with a change coming I'm angry I haven't done this sooner but also about being in this situation.