Pedalling the crazy away
+1000 , helps keep the voices quite .
It's temporarily not my happy place at the moment 🙁
After 2 months of putting everything on hold for a drawn out promotion process at work, on Thursday they renegaded on an agreed process and failed me at the last hurdle.
I went to clear my head Friday the only way I know how - on the bike. Going well until I broke my collarbone. Waiting for the surgery to pin it today. Trauma nurse just called and cancelled it today and booked me in for Friday. What a difference a week makes.
Thus, dreaming of things 2 wheeled at the moment is difficult. I know that will pass though. Ever since being 12 or 13, with girls/homework stuff going on, it's always been a getaway.....
Yep, whenever I go to the dentists for anything; scale & polish, filling etc, that requires a bit of discomfort, I always daydream about a good ride, and for some reason, jumping down steps.
Used to always be I used a ride as a place to think about things, but now I'm in a stressful job and have 2 young kids, its the opposite, it's used to forget everything and just 'be' on the bike.
Not sure if it's a happy place but Im pretty much addicted to the workout and the endorphins or whatever they are that come with it
I don't derive any enjoyment from being on a bike and simply pedalling I have to be going for it 100%.
Last summer I drove to Chamonix for a weeks riding and on the way my car broke down, what followed was a week of hell, including being dumped in a shopping centre will all my kit and no car and phoning the breakdown service ever evening to find out what was happening with my car which was being moved from garage to garage in the wrong direction (further away from where I was staying).
But every day out on the trails I didn't have a moments though about the car, I was too consumed by the joy of riding and the amazing scenery.
So in short YES I totally know where you are coming from.
i suffered a bit from depression quite a few years back (still lingers on occasion)
the doctor suggested that meditation may help me to switch off from job and home worry but i could never chill enough to get any really benefit from it. however, i continually mentioned biking when talking about things that made me feel better or even great.
thats when he mentioned the idea of 'active meditation', that apparently grew out of long distance running. in effect, clearing your mind to do an extended simple task. worrying about the mortgage whilst running or riding over slippy roots and your end up on the floor. if you only think about cycling when cycling your actually in a state of mind thats as different from your normal 'worry laden one' as some zen calm.
and pedalling over wild remote places alone 99% of the time only increases the effect. and the fresh air, encounters with nature, a bike that rules etc and cycling is most definitely my 'happy place'.
