St Colin
I am the OP of this thread and it has been such an eye opener that it has hit 9 pages.
All I can offer you is the fact that whatever troubles you are having It will pass, it will get better you just need to believe and work at it.
It is a hard time of year for many people I know, please keep on trying to see the positive parts of your life when you start to list them you do start to realise that you have a lot of good things in your life.
I mean health, having food to eat, warm house to live in, all the basic stuff, before moving onto the other positives in your life rather than dwelling on the negatives.
Not sure how much sense that makes but it’s what I have been doing and it seems to help you see the bigger picture.
Stay on it mate!