Mrmoofo that was the big lie that started this whole mess, the way he talked about his habit before and when I got here. He made it sound as though it was well and truly in the past, which once I got here tuned out to not be the case, at first I didn’t notice, then after a while I started noticing things, I asked he denied, I gave him so many opportunities to tell me, I asked again, he got angry saying how dare I accuse him of being an addict, I left it alone, finally we got talking and it all came out, I didn’t care that he was using, I cared he had lied to my face, and once someone lies about one thing the doubt spreads, he was very flirtatious with his female friends and naturally that doubt started creeping in on that area too, not helped by the fact that one day he had left his facebook open on my iPad on a message page to a woman I had never heard of that said, “been thinking about you too, lets meet up discreetly though as too many people would get hurt if they found out, we can catch up and see whatever else happens” being the trusting person I am I gave him chance to explain, he said he had been drunk, it had come out wrong and he had said discreetly as the couple had just split up and being friends with them both he was worried the guy would find out and get mad if it looked like he was taking sides.
So again I gave him a chance and I got over it and nothing more was said on the matter. It all just feels like the biggest lie and a huge sick joke at my expense.
I’m also angry cause I have got to know his family really well, and his brother is a single dad to two great kids, who are 10 and 6 who I have grow to love like my own family, and I’m mad at him for telling them that we were always going to be there for them cause now I feel I have broken my promise to them.
