Getting it more out in the open by posting one here is actually probably a good start. If you are ready to do that then you might well be closer to getting through it than you think. Not suggesting that this is a breakdown but the phrase “a breakdown is often a breakthrough” is true and perhaps substituting something less stigmatised for the word breakdown, such as “period of emotional instability” would help in accepting this truth. I say go for it mate. Let it all blow. You won’t find support lacking in the nice people around you and you will get past this.
As for counselling, well, it costs and the cheap ones are rarely any good and generally fall into the category of ‘hand holding’ (for which there is a time and place obviously). Personally I always say go for the most expensive one you can find, that will give you motivation to get the most out of the sessions. But hey, that’s just my own perspective. I think parallels with physical complaints are useful in that if you poked your eye out you wouldn’t want it fixing by a cheap general doctor. You’d want, and pay for, the best. Same difference with your head my friend.
Everything will be alright :-)