Well done for starting this I am going through the same not sure what is wrong it’s just some days I have just had enough,I am not far away near Peterborough so could maybe meet up sometime but I am not very chatty I find it hard meeting new people,if your on Facebook there is a group called Peterborough mountain bike riders they do a night ride every Thursday night at 7 2/3 groups go out and they start/finish at a pub.