Well, hello again. This morning I’ve decided to update this thread in an attempt to get come clarity on what has been going on.
Recently I have been finding things very difficult. In the last week or so I have moved out of my parents into a rented room not far from where I’ve been living. I have been seeing a girl for a around a month. So a lot has been happening. But I can’t cope with it at the minute. The memories and the feelings from my breakup have been haunting me more and more since I have began seeing this girl. I have felt trapped at home with my parents so I moved out. The location of the new house is great, it’s quiet and the house has plenty of space. But I don’t feel comfortable there and I’ve only been there two nights. The house is really dirty too (not students), something that I couldn’t really pick up on when I viewed it a week previous.
Anyway, I could go on about everything, but I don’t want to bore people. I have lost my place at CBT after missing an appointment and not rebooking. So I don’t have any official support.
I really don’t know where to turn now. I can’t take time off work. I have been putting on a brave face with friends and family, arranging things etc. I’m not in control of my anxiety at all and I don’t feel like it’s getting better any time soon.