aracer, how are you today?
Just logged in today and spotted this thread. I’m another one who can level with you having suffered from depression and anxiety most of my adult life. I still haven’t found any answers and still get more bad days than good. Today included. It sounds cliché, but just go and do something that you know makes you feel good, no matter how big or small.
If you want to talk, get in touch away from this forum.