Bruders, I’ve just read through all these posts and related threads. I am really deeply touched by your situation and my heart screams out for you. I am also greatly moved by the outpouring of sympathy and support by others in this thread, you are are surely amongst good people. I’m afraid I have nothing i can say or do to make things different. All I have to offer is that when I have suffered loss which does not yet come close to this, I have lifted my head to look around, people often wonder what happens when someone dies, if anything lives on, and what that might be.
When i looked around, i saw the lives touched by the recently deceased, I saw how everyone they encountered has been changed, even if only a little, as a result of meeting them, this means all those close to you as well as all those hairy unknowns out here. Everyone is slightly changed as a result of the life of your young child. So without any reference to religion or faith, I think there is where he continues to live on, a little part of of all us is better for having known of his life, and there his ‘spirit’ lives, in all of us.
Hope it doesn’t seem too twee, but it was something which came out of reading everyone’s posts.