Sorry to hear that man. I hope you can find some comfort somewhere and move on to a better life.
My ex left me then came back, then left me then came back then left me again, this went on and on and I thought I would never be free from the shackles of this “bad romance” till I found out he was seeing many different women up and down the UK….I realise now I should never have given it a second chance, never mind a third, fourth, fifth, etc.
I know it hurts, but I learned what is for you won’t go by you, and I am sure one day you will be able to look back and see the pain in a different light. Be safe.
HUG