Glad your starting getting sorted Op.
It’s like climbing a mountain at first.
Good speed to you.
Not posted under this pseudonym for a while.
But here goes..
I’m not in a great place. Bikes are no help. Work is crap, no drive to do anything but sit & mull. Used to be that work or home, in any order, would balance out the other when one was crap. Feel like I’m watching myself, slowly sinking. When I was depressed before it was like a fog, triggered by discovering a partner was cheating then her walking out. Slowly, very slowly at first, the fog cleared. Half a day at a time. It’s like that in reverse at the moment, This time of year I’m normally full of beans. Christ, I’ve a Wife, two kids, a well paid decent job with plenty of responsibility, hell we’ve even got a dog. I should be up there, living the life. Instead I’m wondering how things would run without me. Head is full to bursting but can’t talk to anyone. Health isn’t great, quite overweight, out of breath a lot. All I want to do is curl up & cry. How the hell do I even start to unravel this one.