I get the whole “gaping hole” thing (fnarr, well it is friday)
A couple of years ago I thought the type of car/watch/bike/haircut/shoes/t-shirt, all that mattered. I sunk into an obsessive state of mind and into depression, lost my job, got into more debt than I could handle just trying to live day to day. Luckily I have a wife that saw that it would get better and helped rather than throwing a wobbly and leaving.
Now I still have the depression and obsessive traits, but all the things that I thought mattered started to not matter as much. I’m still in debt, but its getting better. I have a house, my wife still wants to be with me and I have a dog that thinks i’m the bees knees (when I’m willing to repeatadly throw things for, he has worse OCD than me)
As for the gaping hole? I got into a job that I actually enjoy doing rather than something I hate but do it for the cash. I have an interview this week to hopefully get higher up the ladder, and I’m self teaching coding to hopefully one day get into my dream job. It’s all about the balance, as soon as you try to extend too far outside your comfort zone that’s when unhappiness kicks in right royally.
