I have a chequered past,
have had quite a few ‘ black eyes’ mostly due to mis-spent youth.
got involved in a drunken disagreement in 2008 which resulted in a detached retiner and torn optical nerve.
I have no central and a limited periferal in my right (shooting) eye.
Had 3 operations to save the eye, last one involved me having to lie face down for 2 weeks to allow the lazer weld to heal.
horrible experience.
Life changing injury and not for the better. I remember at the time how much it affected every day normalities eg I kept falling off kerbs, bumping into doors and struggled to pour boiling water into a coffee cup.
My place of work back then didn’t simpathise with my long term sickness due to depression or cater for my new disability ( was a joiner ) so I jacked and signed on. Nearly lost the the house and me and the the mrs at the time eventually split, nobody understood or recognised my injury which added insult to injury, it’s a disabilitie that people don’t see.
i now have a shyte job that I hate but it pays the bills and me and new mrs are solid
I don’t shoot anymore and my riding has suffered drastically. My perspective of speed/distance disappeared over night and injuries used to be common because I was in denial and carried on riding like I used to. Took me a while to accept that speed and gravity riding is not for me anymore.
Old riding buddies just didnt understand why I didnt want to join them to ride extreme stuff anymore and i gave up trying to explain or justify why as it was a constant reminder of my injury (disability!) and it really got me down, I don’t really see them anymore.
had an eye check recently and I have developed a chatarct so things are going to change again, reckon I can cope with that now.
Hopefully your injury is not as bad as mine but you will find that you do adjust eventually.
I still ride XC and gravel now but miss the buzz of DH etc
quite upset as I wright this, thought I was over it, obviously not.
good luck mate, let me know how you get on.