“Does everybody else just go round smiling and pretend?”
Nobody really wants to hear the truth, they only ask out of convention. I have found it really important to have someone who I can turn to when the bad thoughts are crowding in and say I’m not feeling well. In my case it’s my wife but it doesn’t have to be someone intimate – I’m sure if I spoke to my cbt therapist it would be the same. I don’t even need to go into detail because I know the bad thoughts sre rubbish; but if I can say I’ve had suicidal thoughts then I always feel better.