Hi mate, this is my 1st post on this forum as i've only just discovered STW, normally spend my time on bikeradar.
I would just like to say that i think your a real inspiration to everyone, the strength and courage both you and Mrs Petesgaff have shown is truly amazing. If i could be half the person you are i'd be happy. Reading your updates and all the comments from others on here is a humbling experience. I honestly dont think anyone will view you as a "pussy" because you need physical contact with your wife Meg. I imagine that although you obviously have many friends and supporters it can be a very lonely place your in especially at 3am with your mind working overtime. Everyone needs someone or something as their support and she is blatantly the sun in your sky and i wish you both the best for you future together. I cannot finds the words or express my feelings enough on here to portray my admiration for you, more importantly the both of you.
You are not a coward, you are an amazingly brave person and if i were wearing a hat right now i'd be taking it off to you for sharing so publicly what i can only imagine have been your darkest and happiest days of your life.
Im sorry ive never met you (my lose) and i sincerely hope i have not offended you in any way by posting on here. All the best.