I haven’t read all the above because I cant be arsed but,
C’mon Houns pick yourself up, I think you are aware of my situation, the love of my life (together 14 years) left me last year and I was devastated, but a year on (to the day in fact) I’m with someone new who I love and adore.
I’m 45 you are 35 you have plenty of time just chill, it will happen.