Wonderful thread. I’m sure most people who read it have abolutely no idea, which, unfortunately is how it is in the real world. Try explaining to your manager truthfully why you couldn’t even summon the energy or will to pick up the phone to actually talk to a real life person, when anything outside of your duvet is a nightmare waiting to happen, even more of a nightmare than what is happening under the duvet in your head. I have these problems off and on, I’m certain not as bad as a lot of people, but bad enough to be able to empathise. The self-esteem thing, the continuous voice in your head that keeps saying no you can’t do that, nope you’re not good enough, all the **** no’s that deny you and negative spiral when it comes is just **** rubbish and just drags you down into a black hole of anxiety and panic and meaninglessness etc. Being sel critical is a good thing and can push you to make great things, but this is like a hyper version of that that is so negative and self-destructive. it’s a **** battle when it get’s like that and no denying it. Just battle on. Sometimes it is so hard to see yourself from the right perspective.When you get that “rigt” self-perspective back you have to cherish it and feed it properly with exercise, family, good friends, all the good stuff I reckon. “mindfullness” has been reccommended to me by mates, and daft stuff like swimming, meditation, etc, to get head in right place. and I think all that is right. as I never feel happierthan when “escaping” up a mountain or out on bike etc. I guess you have to find ways of coping that are positive, rather than negative like booze or something. anyway, that’s my ramble :) x
