I feel the same
I’ve no wish to check out, I just struggle to find meaning in anything. I feel like a robot, and constantly wonder what’s the point?
I think in my case there are 2 reasons. My health isn’t great and that prevents me doing a lot of things I’d love to do. I also get paid just enough to cover bills and food and getting to work. No spends for anything extra, even going for a few pints isn’t happening.
I think some of us think too much. I’ve been like this since being a teenager. I remember standing on the platform at piccadilly train station, when I was around 18,looking at guys in their 50’s and thinking ‘is this it?’
I think the key is finding something that you are comfortable with. Looking back my happiest times were when I worked in menial Summer jobs (NZ and USA). No responsibility and laid back people to be around.
Ideally I’d like to bugger off to France or Italy and and work in a completely different field.
For me new experiences are what make me happy and at peace. I’m not really healthy enough at the moment. For the OP, if you have decent health, then try something new, it’s the monotony that’s dangerous