Always have a tough time of it at this time of year. Normally just batten the hatches and try to ride it out, or disappear to a bothy for a place where I don’t need to think.
Lost my job in October so Christmas has been a bit of a financial struggle, but I think I’ve done enough to make sure kids are happy.
My Mum had a brain aneurysm this year and was touch and go for a while but made it through.
Just back tonight from my Uncles funeral, who died after basically just giving up on life.
But, and it a big but, my Ex has decided I can see my kids at Christmas for the first time in five years.
I’m hoping that seeing them smile opening presents for the first time in years will make me think of it as being a happy time going forward, rather than a horrible time and I’m fortunate my mum will see it too.
Trying very hard to focus on the positives.
Thoughts to anyone who may be having a hard time.