Agree with pretty much everything that has been said here and like a lot of folks on here I’ve been through similar within the past two years. Never in my lifetime did I think what happened ever would.
I think one of the most difficult things to deal with is the lack of answers and this can be very hard to come to terms with. Also the feelings of guilt which is an entirely natural emotion to go through for those suffering a bereavement
Mental health and suicide are such complex issues though and I’m sure are far more prevalent that most people might imagine, and its important to remember there is no way you could have forseen what your friend did.
People very close to me have found bereavment councilling very helpful. In particular Cruse[/url] who are a free national charity offering councilling services. Its always worth knowing should you feel to wish to speak to someone. Its important not to keep feelings and thoughts bottled up and speaking to others can help a great deal.
I’m sorry to hear your sad loss too.