Hi Mark
Glad to hear you are doing so well!
With regard to your fear – don't worry about feeling that way it's all part of your journey and quite natural. I'm sure it can be a very dark space but at the end of each little tunnel you will be stronger. There may be lots of little tunnels each day but hopefully not too many.
Get outside as much as you can – daylight is a wonderful thing.
With regard to waking up i know this is a real dread – try a good light hearted book that takes you away from everything and an easy crossword book – make tea and have an early breakfast then maybe you will be able to go back to sleep.
Hope one of these may help. Still thinking of you both. Chin up x