Like others have said, just don’t worry about it.
I have only ridden twice in the last 2 months, when I did I didn’t enjoy about 80% (lots of pedally fireroad) of the ride but the other 20% was great fun (some great stuff at Coedy). Saying that, the bikes gears were misbehaving badly so that won’t have helped.
Getting back on track though, I am not interested at all in getting the bike out for evening rides at Delamere which is what I have done 2 evenings a week for 4 or so years, riding through the winters no problem but this year, pretty much as soon as the dark evenings set in I just can’t be bothered with it all again.
For me it is the mud and slop. I will get out again during the drier months but at the moment don’t really care how long I give up the regular riding for.
Would rather go for a walk to be honest!