I am suffering this alot at the moment.
There’s a decent size drop in my local woods that I was always terrified of, I eventually bought a big full susser and rode it a few times, but it was just a case of rolling off it and hoping for the best.
I then bought my Covert and rode it only to have my foot come off the pedal and the saddle to come a few mm from castrating me.
Obviously this didn’t do my confidence any good. In the meantime I built a quite big kicker further down, probably harder than the drop itself but I’m fine with it, I fly off it no probs, because I built it myself.
Last week I spent about half an hour trying to ride the drop and bottling, until some I spotted some people pushing up the trail and had to ride it! yesterday I was out there and spent an hour trying to do it but just couldn’t, brakes came on as if on their own.
The fact that someone got airlifted to hospital after crashing it last week and ending up with spinal injuries doesn’t help i suppose…