OP here. Will dedicate myself to reducing & defining my position later but I shall clarify this:
For me, right now, it’s a matter of perspective. less to do with genocide on the news, more about perceiving the world to be less empathetic and more destructive than a few years ago. Which depresses me greatly. I’m not nihilistic, I want to want to be hopeful and for that positivity to be vindicated by some source of useful information that proves that “we” are progressing towards unity, not complete annihilation.
By “we” I mean everyone on earth. People will say to me “people are shit”. I don’t believe they are, but it looks that way.
For those who wonder: I don’t watch tv news or buy newspapers, no Facebook, no Instagram, not a socialist, not a capitalist, not yes, not no.
I’m well read, if the above is a guide, reading Foulcault & Marx in the early days through Orwell, Bradbury and Golding and the God delusion and Origin of species and latterly a lot of spoken word stuff: Allen Ginsberg, Benjamin Zephenia etc.