A similar experience is what helped me choose this screen name ;)
It will get better in time. There are options but these are surgical and have been told by folk that have had them, it hurts a lot! It’s a last resort – google, talk to your gp, don’t suffer in silence ;)
A high fibre diet is essential and during an episode, lactulose is your friend (assuming you can take it). It will soften your poo which in combination with arse cream and suppositories will help manage them. Don’t sit on the toilet too long, don’t strain and eat a good diet.
Most folk will get anal grapes at some point, it’s nothing special ;)